just where is the helping hand i'm searching for ?
i'm confuse ,really confuse ,
are they helping me or making use of me ?
i seldom say the word no ,
from the beginning ,am i choosing the right path?
my heart is loaded heavily with so much thing
and i need someone to take it away.

i have been driving all over different places this few day
and is without the company of my dad but my friends
but my parking skill ish still very suckering
overtaking is very heart beating
and the engine drink the petrol like human drinking coke
very fast and very expensive , $20 for quarter of tank
so will have to revisit ESSO often .

every morning my phone alarms will wake me up around 730am
to go for work
and i will just hit the snooze button and go back to my dreaming land
and my brain will alway instructed my head not to wake up
and everyday i will be squeezeing inside the overcrowded train
listening to music blasting from my ipod for forty-five minutes
untill the redhill station,
this kind of tireding life keep repeating for the whole week
and this will be going on for afew month
i can only enjoy my precious weekend as it is my off day

btw ,after getting my class 3 licence
i have not drive out on my ownself before
my dad say need his company this few week
feel abit down ,
but i will try to presuade him to let me drive and fetch my friend around.

class 3 licence

it have been such a long while since i blog

anyway ,after second attempt
i had finally pass my class 3 car licence
it was such a joy ,
i call alot of my pal to announce the good news,


soon after i had pass my licence
i went down to city link hmv to brought myself 3cd album
so i can enjoy them while driving .

went to top payoh to look for my dad so i can drive his car home
cant imagine myself driving back to SengKang from Top Payoh.
i nearly had 2 accident,
still my dad say he don't allow me to drive without his company .
aleast untill i am familar with the road and car .

i want a newlaptop
with no computer
part of my life is like kill

i can only update this at my friend house

my 2nd aunt just passed away
and
my computer gone ill

so i cant update my life too often

fuck,i forget to collect a $300 cheque from ite ,and today is the deadline, and how could i ever forget that..


and i'm not feeling very good right now,and i don't even know why ,
this feeling have already been troubling me for afew day and it is fucking very irritating
hell. ..what i need is something that could make me laugh all day long making my mouth cramp

there's blood contain in my shit, HELL !
i'm toooo worried ,thought it may be cancer or what
my father drove me to see doctor during 12.30 midnight
and found out that it is just pile. .=\
it scare the hell out of me btw.
and because of that i'm making my parent worried and they did not do business today
and make them quarrel as they said that i alway stay out late at night


i will sleep early everyday starting from now,
i've been hanging out late everyday
and making my parent soo worried everynight,



AND..
fucking hell !my phone cant be connected to my computer
and so hundreds of photo cant be upload .
need to repair it soon. . .

the whole singapore is so hot today just like socking in the suana ,and i just cant stand the weather now,it just like it is behaving a mood swing,suddenly want to rain,it rain non-stop,when become angry,the sun come out and punish everyone on earth and make everybody exercise ,perspire and lose their pound of fats

EXAM EXAM EXAM EXAMMMM ! STRESS STRESSS STRESSS!
already stress enough ,lasalle called me this afternoon and ask me to prepare portfolio and interview ,
i'm not not so good at doing that,so have to pay another 327bucks to learn,,
and now i do not know if i want to persuade my studies and apply for lasalle or shave my hair and prepare for NS ?
lasalle definitely will cost much,and that added another problem for me.
anyone give me an idea please !!! PLEASE !! GIVE ME SOME IDEA ,will be greatly appreciate ! =]